paramore - grow up.

You guys probably don't know this but I'm a HUGE fan of paramore. And they just came out with their latest self titled album: PARAMORE. Let me tell you this. I've never  experienced such understanding one album. Yeah, their songs can be relatable but this album hit home. Grow up is my favorite right now but a lot of the songs on the album are about the trials of growing up and that incessant need to be on your own and change. Lately I've felt stuck. Same town. Same house. Same depressive state of mind. I want be happy. I feel as if being here is what's causing me to be so unhappy. I stay in Portland with my brother sometimes and it's nothing but fun and I'm happy all the time! but then I come back home and I'm stuck in that loop of sadness, then hope, then depression. once again. Don't get me wrong, I know growing up and living in the real world isn't easy. but I can't help but feel that it's what's best for me. Sadly I'm only 16 so I still have a ways to go. like getting my license and a job and a car and saving money to move out. then when I move I need another job. I know it'll be hard. but honestly, I can't wait for every moment of it. :)